It has been a year since Amrita left for Sarawak.
She eventually got used to the idea of being away from home. She also has
finally got used to the lifestyle. She does continue texting Shivaensh but they
are too busy to talk often. Amrita has her time fully filled with never ending
assignments and assessments. She has a group of friends who was able to fill
the emptiness she felt because of staying away from her family. Amrita was able
to be exposed with the surrounding and the lifestyle of people in Sarawak.
Amrita often called home because even though she
has friends around. She still misses her father’s voice, her mother’s cooking
and warm hugs, her siblings’ playfulness. She went back home last month for her
semester break and was able to spend a month with her family. Though she just
came back to Sarawak, she is already missing them so badly.
She was supposed to also meet Shivanesh during
the break, but she was too busy to go out. Being able to text Shivanesh is not
enough for her because she felt like it has been years since they met the last
time. She is very curious of how he looks now, how tall has he grown. She saw
some pictures uploaded by him and his friends on Facebook. She saw how handsome
and grown he has become. She saw how he has grown to look like a matured young
lad. He seem to have not changed much, only grown much more of a man. Amrita
felt a sense of attraction towards Shivanesh since the day he confessed something
really surprising to her. She thought that she is done with having weird
feelings in her heart. She never thought that she could still feel tingly in
her stomach over a guy.
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Shivanesh finally finished his Diploma. He did
want to continue his studies like his friends, bu situation does not allow him
to do so. Things were not going as planned for Shivanesh. He decided to put a
temporary stop to his studies and support his sister’s. He applied for a job as
a waiter at a restaurant. He was asked to work for 14 hours a day. He could not
complain because he really needs the job and money to help his mother and his
sister. Sumithra finished her SPM and she managed to get good results. She
decided to not trouble her brother and mother. She acknowledged the fact that
her brother gave up his studies to help her with her studies. Therefore, she
decided to continue her studies by doing STPM in a school.
Shivanesh is so caught up with his work that he
barely had time to text Amrita. But he still tries to keep in touch with her.
He does miss talking to her very much if he does not do it in 3 days. Shivanesh
remembered the day he sent something silly and utterly stupid to Amrita.
Shivanesh was aware that he has not had any interest in any girls for the past
years and he clearly knows why. His heart was already occupied by one girl and
it has always been only one. This girl had all the control on his emotions. She
has the tendency of making him go haywire and also of making him stay in place.
He finally told her about it but her reaction was unexpected.
Shivanesh remembered the day he sent her such
message. He just ended his Diploma and was looking for a job on internet when
he saw a notification of message on his computer. He saw Amrita online and he
suddenly felt really excited. Amrita has been messaging him and always told him
about her life in Sarawak. Shivanesh was just glad that she accepts him as a
friend that she can talk to.
Amrita:
Shiva!! I can’t wait. I am coming home in 2
week!!
Shivanesh smiled to
himself and replied to her.
Shivanesh:
Great. I can actually see
you jumping around.
Amrita:
Hihihi. Yeah, Shiva. I miss you a lot. Do you
think I can see you when I am back?
Shivanesh was shocked to see what Amrita just
sent. He could not believe that Amrita said she missed him and she wishes to
see him. He read it many times just to be sure he read it right. After what
happened a few years back, he could not believe that she would want to see him
again. He then replied to her what he had in his heart.
Shivanesh:
I really do miss you. I
really hope we can. I might be busy but I will try to think of something.
Amrita:
Make sure you do.
Shivanesh wanted to find
out what is Amrita’s real feelings towards him. He wanted to try to find some
clues. He decided to send a message to see her reaction. But he only sent it a
day after.
Shivanesh:
Amrita, I really wished
you were my girlfriend
Amrita was jumping around because she was excited
about coming home and also the chances of meeting Shivanesh. Just yesterday she
told Shivanesh that she missed him and she wishes to see him. She was busy
telling her roommates about Shivanesh when she heard a notification tone on her
laptop. She checked her message and saw Shivanesh’s message. She was shocked to
see the message.
Amrita was wondering what should she reply. She
does not know if she should ignore it take it as a joke. She does not even know
what she wants from Shivanesh. The message made her feel butterflies in her. But
she was afraid to love again.
Amrita was back home 2 weeks after but she was
doubting whether or not she should contact Shivanesh. She knows he likes her.
She knows that he has some special feeling for her. She knows she has some
attraction to him. But she is afraid that she might hurt him because she
herself was not sure of her feelings yet. She did not want to give him any fake
hopes or make him confused because she herself was confused about how she feels
and what to do. So, she just waited a message from Shivanesh about them meeting
up.
Amrita was torn between two options. She really
wants to meet Shivanesh but at the same time she is not so sure and definite
about her feelings towards Shivanesh. But she knows that there are guys
pursuing her in university, she is not very interested because she tend to
compare them to Shivanesh and she feels as though no one can make her as happy
as Shivanesh. She remembered how he made her forget the pain she had when she
was with Suresh and when she was curing from the breakup. She is totally confused
whether the feelings she has for him is either just attraction, or she really
likes him.
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