Chapter 20- Development

Shivanesh recently joined with some local music producers as a lyric writer. Shivanesh has always loved music and poetry and has had a great passion in it. So, he decided pursue a career in it and so far, he is doing really good at it. The job has kept his mind busy and it was a pleasurable job for him as he does not need to separate his thoughts between work and Amrita as she is his muse and the reason he is excelling in his job.

The emotions he had for her, the longing feeling he feels when she is not around, all the emotions, good or bad that he has for Amrita, he turns it all into words. He is always a guy with not much words and expressions in his daily life but somehow writing lyrics makes him to be more expressive of his emotions. Because of his way of writing and the amount on emotions he pours in his lyrics, he has got himself a firm spot in the music industry. Even being busy with work does not make him to stop thinking about Amrita and talking to her. Speaking to her was a must in his schedules and a necessity for his job as she was always the centre of his lyrics. Amrita and Shivanesh talks to each other every day. They seem to always have something to talk about all the time and they never run out of topics. Slowly he realized that he just loves her as she is. For him, everything she is, everything she has is everything he is in live with.

He loved that she is outspoken and brave to make and embrace the decisions she make. She is modern but never forget or let go off her tradition and culture. Even when she is modern lady with a modern mentality, she still is traditionally elegant in the way she dresses and bring herself in public. She is a lady who is proud and confident in her own skin and never let anything people say break her confidence. She is smart and intelligent and very good with words. Her passion of wanting to always be successful makes Shivanesh to set her as his role model. He is not an inch embarrassed to make her the skyscraper of his life. Having her in his life has motivate him to be the better man for himself and for her.

Shivanesh can never find any other word to describe Amrita but Goddess. He feels that the word symbolizes Amrita as a whole. For him, she is a blessing in his life and he is willing to do anything if he is able to make her happy. She means the world to him and he wishes he could tell her so. Shivanesh is very afraid to lose Amrita for the second time. He does not know how he would survive without her because she is now not just the love of his life but also his emotional support. She is the reason he smiles every day. Even the thoughts of not having her in his life anymore brings chills to his spine thinking about how he would move on with his life.

Shivanesh was loss in his thoughts thinking about Amrita and converting them into words when his phone rang. A smile grew on his face when he saw who the caller was.

“Hey. I was just thinking about you,” Shivanesh said answering the call.

“Aww.. Really? That so sweet. Where are you? Sounds a bit too quiet to be at home,” Amrita said.

“In my work studio. So, how was your day?” Shivanesh asked.

“It is a bit too late to still be at work, right? Aren’t you afraid that some ghost might be spending some time next to you now?” Amrita asked trying to tease Shivanesh.

“No. Ghost might get scarred and run away when they see me. I look scarier than them,” Shivanesh said. He could hear Amrita giggling on what he said.

“You are a handsome and attractive hunk. Some lady ghost might be attracted and stay with you tonight,” Amrita said trying to tease him again.

“If that happens, then I will bring that ghost out for a date for getting attracted to me,” Shivanesh said trying to make Amrita giggle again. Just as he expected, she giggled again. Amrita’s giggle will always be music to his ears. Shivanesh’s stomach tickles whenever Amrita giggles knowing that he has the ability to entertain her and make her laugh. He knows that she is stressful and homesick as a student and away from home.

“Ok. On the serious note. What are you still doing at work this late?” Amrita asked with a more serious tone.

“Needed to do some editing. They need that lyrics by tomorrow for recordings. Why? Are you worried of me?” Shivanesh asked trying to get a hint of Amrita’s feeling towards him.

“Of course, I am. You could get sick if you do not have enough sleep. You have been working late for a few nights now,” Amrita said feeling worried for Shivanesh.

Shivanesh smiled listening to what Amrita said. He felt his work stress for the day evaporating out of his shoulders.

“Well. Don’t worry. I am almost done. Will get it done fast and leave. I have to finish this because I took a day off tomorrow. So, will be able to rest longer. If I don’t get it done today, then I would have to cause a delay. Don’t want to cause trouble for the other people I am working with.” Shivanesh explained.

“Well then, I should hang up. I need you to finish fast and leave.” Amrita said.

“No! Don’t hang up. I want to talk to you. I am a multitasker. Don’t worry. I will be done with my work in no time. So, tell me. How was your day? Fun?” Shivanesh said trying to divert Amrita’s mind.

Amrita started telling Shivanesh about her day. Shivanesh always finds it interesting and entertaining to lend an ear to listen about Amrita’s day. Especially her expression and how her emotions can change in seconds when she is telling a story.

For Shivanesh, being able to talk to Amrita on the phone was an entertainment and stress relief. She makes him smile without realizing it. Shivanesh always feel honoured to be a part of Amrita’s life. Shivanesh knows about the guys who tried to pursue Amrita. A part of him is worried that she might choose those guys. But a part of him was also afraid that if he tells her how he feels, she would walk away from him.

Amrita enjoys talking to Shivanesh. It feels nice to have someone to talk to without needing to worry that she may sound like an idiot. She likes that fact that Shivanesh always makes time to talk to her. She likes how he is always curious about what she did for the day and never judge her for the things she does. In fact, he is always positive and supportive towards what she does and the decision she makes. She feels comfortable telling him everything.

Amrita realized that she was talking too long on the phone with Shivanesh and worried that she might be distracting him from his job.

“Shiva. Are you done? Are you sure I am not distracting you or delaying your work?” Amrita asked, worried.

“Amrita. I am already on my way to my bike. I was just about to tell you that I will call you once I reach home,” Shivanesh said. He knew that Amrita is worried about him. And it makes him feel a bit of flutters whenever he knows that she is worried whenever he is works late and ride back late. He knows that Amrita started worrying about him more after he told her about his accident.

He remembers the night he told her about his accident. He told her about how he got drunk and the reason for his distraction causing the accident. He remembers very well that night she cried so much and keep on apologizing because she feels like she was the reason he went through such a horrible accident. He remembers clearly how Amrita’s stopped crying suddenly and got angry and started scolding him about not telling him about the accident. And because of that, Amrita keeps calling every night to check on him and his safety. Shivanesh actually likes Amrita worrying about him like this but at times he is afraid that he might be causing too much trouble for Amrita.

“Okay. Go home. Call me once you are home. I will wait,” Amrita said still worried about Shivanesh’s safety.

“Don’t wait. Go and sleep. It is late and you have classes tomorrow. Have some rest. Don’t worry about me. I will text you once I am home. You can scold me all you want tomorrow if I forget to text you. Is that a deal?” Shivanesh asked. He does appreciate the care but he does not want her to neglect her halh worrying about him.

“Okay. Deal. Go home and not anywhere else. It is very late. Be safe. Good night,” Amrita said.

“Good night, Amrita. Rest well,” Shivanesh said hanging up and starting his motorcycle engine.

The moment he reached home, he texted Amrita that he has arrived. Just as he sent the text, Amrita called him.

“Hey. Why aren’t you asleep?” Shivanesh asked as he answered the phone.

“Need to make sure you are home,” Amrita said.

“Amrita. You can lower the worrying a bit. I won’t make the same mistake again. You have t learn to trust me and also let go of the guilt you have. It is not your fault,” Shivanesh said trying to calm Amrita.

“Okay. I will,” Amrita said.

“Now go and sleep. Good night, Amrita,” Shivanesh said.

“Good night Shivanesh,” Amrita said ending the call.

Shivanesh just smiled and went in to his house.